I decided to get rid of my livejournal. Well, I stopped posting on it. Because certain people have it, and I don’t really want them to. And people lurk it, so I don’t like that. So I got this, and i’m only giving it to a few people.
Today was alright. I woke up at about 4 pm, and sat around the house for a while. Then I went to the mall, bought Ryan his Valentine’s gifts, and met up with him for a little while. He was there with Nick and Scott, and my brother recently became friends with them. Don’t get get me wrong, I like them and all, but Todd acts very different around them. He was making fun of me, and making fun of Ryan, and I wasn’t really into that. I know he doesn’t mean it, but still. It wasn’t nice.
I’ve been sick on and off for over a week now. I hate it. I have this cough that won’t go away. Blehg.
Oh! i started stretching my ears recently. They’re only at an 8, but I guess you have to start somewhere. I plan on going up to 5/8ths. :]
So, girls piss me off. Last week two of Ryan’s exes came to me and tried to tell me things that I didn’t believe. Of course it made me mad, and it made him really mad too. Then, one of them tried to befriend me, she was nice, but I know she’s going to try and gain my trust and then do something. I was nice to her back, but i’m not going to trust her.
Speaking of exes, I ran into Joe tonight. He was there with his girlfriend, I don’t care about that. I just wish she knew how trashy he is. He’ll probably end up cheating on her and lying to her. Poor girl. I wonder if she knows what he did to me? None of that matters now, of course. I’m just saying.
I know it’s been almost a month since my grandma died. I’m having a very hard time getting over it. Yesterday, I was up at my dad’s with Ryan. Her car was there and I sat in it and I got flooded with memories. Every summer i’d come stay with her for a few weeks, and we’d go swimming and shopping and watch movies halfway through the night. Then we’d go stay in her camper up at Shanendoah and go fishing. We’d talk for hours and she was just always there for me. It feels like there’s a big empty space without her, she was one of the best friends i’d ever had. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to get over this, and I don’t know if I ever will. But if there is a heaven, I believe she is there. That woman changed my life.
I think i’m going to go paint something, I’ve had the urge to do so since yesterday.
