I can’t sleep.
I’ve been painting and talking on the phone all night.
I don’t like the way my painting turned out. It doesn’t even look like it was supposed to. And I talked to Kristen for an hour tonight, it was nice.
I’ve laid in bed trying to get tired for the past 2 hours but it’s not working. Obviously.
Ryan’s birthday is today. He went to breakfast a few minutes ago. I’ve been on the phone with him all night and he’s not been too talkative, which kind of sucks.
Today Mom and Ash took us all to outback. Today we’re going paddle boating or something. I fucking hate boats. I hate being on the water.
I still don’t feel good. I didn’t feel good all day and I’ve stayed in a bad mood and I’ve been irate and I hate it. It’s just because I physically feel like shit. I’ve taken meds, but no matter what I do something hurts. It’s either my back or my head or my jaw. I’m tired of it.
I need a break, so bad. I don’t want to go to school Monday. At least we only have 18 days left.. :/
I don’t know what I need. I’ve been in a horrid mood for a couple of days and I’m sorry to whoever I’ve taken it out on.
Well on the bright side I get to see Ryan today. And Mom’s ordering me some 9/16ths Friday.
I think I’m going to lay down.
