we will become silhouettes

Amy is going to attempt to take me to court. It’s a long story, but here it goes;

This kid comes up to me at school and is like, “KK is your stepsister, right?” I said yes, and he shows me these trashy pictures she sent him. I’m not going to go into detail, but it was twat and boobs. And it DID show her face too, so she couldn’t say it wasn’t her.

So I send her a text, basically saying that she was trash, and then she attacked me. So I called her boyfriend and informed him of this, and you know what? HE FORGAVE HER. If Ryan sent another girl trashy pictures ‘because he was mad at me’ I would leave him.

And it figures, KK turned it around on me to Amy, and now she’s going to take me to court for harassment. HA!

But anyways. I’ve decided to write more again, and I starting re-writing something I wrote over two years ago.

I started reading the Harry Potter books again, too. I loved those.

I stayed home from school today to catch up on sleep. All during the week I’m so tired. I slept a good 12 hours last night and it was much needed. Oh! I’ve started listening to a band called Oceansize, and you need to check them out.

I’m running out of shit to talk about, so I’ll leave it at here.

I’m incredibly stressed lately..I hate school more that anything. Tomorrow I have to go until 5. I’m not looking forward to that at all. At least I”ll graduate on time because of this program. I’ve decided that I want to be a therapist. I want to help people.

I hate all this stress. I want to hurt something. I need some lovins.

Today has been one of the longest days in a while.

I’ve been up on 4 hours of sleep since 7 this morning. So, I’m a few hours shy of being up for 24 hours. And right now, honestly, I feel like I’m going to fall over dead.

This morning I had a hard time getting up. I slept awful, but I had the sweetest text from Ryan this morning and it made my day seem like it was going to be okay. It was a good start to the day. But then I started to get ready, and realized that I was too tired to straighten my hair properly. Or put on my clothes without getting deodorant all over them. But anyway, I went to school and all that nonsense. And of course, someone pissed me off today again. I was walking back from lunch, to geometry, and this fat cunt plows into me and is like “GOD, WATCH WHERE YOU’RE FUCKING GOING.” Like it was my fault. And she actually hurt me a little bit, cause I mean, she obviously couldn’t slow down, all that momentum and all. Huge objects move too fast sometimes. So I walked a little slower and she ended up going in front of me about 10 feet, and she was talking to her tiny little pocket white boy, and said very loudly, “That bitch back there ran right into me.” How nice, huh? People are so kind.

Ryan picked me up early and we went to his place to get his sheets, because god loves him and his dryer broke. And then, we went back out into town, and traffic was awful. Gas prices raised a good 40 cents today (not even kidding) and everyone and their grandma were filling up. Because of a hurricane. All the way in Texas. One gas station even ran out of gas. It took us near 25 minutes to go a few miles to Taco Bell. We went back to my house and washed his sheets, etc, and then rented 30 Days of Night. He liked it, to my surprise.

We had quite an adventure..We were going to Walmart, right? Well in the turning lane, this car passes us and I think to myself, “Hey that looks like Ryan’s fat head case ex girlfriend.” Turns out it was his fat head case ex girlfriend. She gets behind us. When she wasn’t even going in our direction. Follows us to Walmart. Follows us inside, and lurks around in there, and of course, runs into us a couple times. And she left before we did, too. It creeped me out something fierce, and I feel like I need to stay at home with him forever now. So she doesn’t come for me.

I love jealous girls who can’t let go of the past. She tried to break us up several months back, and I think one day her and this other crazy are going to come to my house and kill me. I’m going to go lock my windows now.

And I saw Amy today! Joy! I felt the need to go home and spray myself all over with Lysol.

I’m about to fall over. I’m going to call Ryan now and talk to him until I pass out. That’s all for now.

Pretty, eh?

So today was good. I went to school and they had all these colleges there and I looked at a few that seemed pretty interesting. And I might go into psychology, after today. I looked at this local college in Virginia and the requirements aren’t too high. So I’m pretty interested in that.

Ryan picked me up after school and I went to his place and fell asleep for a couple hours. Then we came back to my house and I got those nice plugs (on the right) that he ordered for me last week. I love them :]

We watched this program on September 11th and it was very depressing. It was footage that different people got on their phones, camcorders etc. I went to ground zero in 07′ and it’s pretty overwhelming. The hole in the ground is gigantic and it’s really sad to see it and think, all these people died here and they didn’t have to. I don’t see why people insist on hurting and killing each other.

I’m really glad tomorrow is Friday. I don’t like school and I’ve been so tired lately. I don’t get enough sleep and I end up taking a nap every day. It’s getting rediculous. The doctor won’t give me anything to help me sleep, either. Which is awesome.

I guess I’m going to go and attempt communication with my occupied boyfriend. (I have a competition with the Xbox, I swear. Kidding!)

So today was wonderful. I woke up at like 4. I needed the rest so much. I had some by myself time (along with the fat ass cat) and watched TV for a while. Ryan came to get me, we talked to my mom for a bit and she was like, “Hey, you guys want to go out and eat tonight?” and she randomly gave us money, and we went to Texas Steakhouse.

We were there for a good 2 hours eating and talking. The original plan was to go home, and watch a movie, but we ended up cuddling and talking for a couple hours. We came back to my house, and sat outside and enjoyed each others company for a while. I love it how I can be with him and we don’t even really have to do anything. That’s really my best time spent is just being with him.

Tomorrow makes one year! I’m so happy about it.

You complete me, Ryan. I don’t know where I’d be or what I would do if you weren’t in my life. You’re the reason I wake up every morning and you’re the reason I am happy. I love you with everything in me. Thank you for being so good to me. I can’t wait to grow old with you.

<3

Today was better than yesterday.

I went into school late since I felt like shit AGAIN.  Then, I left early. Ryan picked me up and we went back to his house and took a nap. We hung out all day and that was that. He got me some plugs for our one year, but I can’t see them. It’s a surprise.

Mom and Ash are possibly getting married soon. Finally. They’ve been together for almost 5 years, it’s about time.

I’m really looking forward to Sunday. Ryan and I are going out to dinner, and having our pictures made. It’s going to be a lot of fun. You know, this past year has been the best year of my life. I love that boy.

Time to lay down and wait for him to call now. More tomorrow, probably.

So today was long.

I woke up on 4-5 hours of sleep and went to school. I got to lunch, right? Well it was so crowded that they ran out of food, and for some reason turned off the vending machines. I was already feeling like shit, which was awesome, so I had a water for lunch. Seriously.

They need to build onto the school or something. It’s getting to be a pain in the ass.

Tomorrow Ryan’s picking me up for lunch. I’m not eating school food.

Someone stole his xbox live account. He’s infuriated, and I would be too. He has to get all his acheivements, games, etc all over again. That’s not fair.

I don’t have much to talk about right now. More tomorrow maybe.

I’m alright. I’ve been fighting an epic battle with the flu/bitches/laziness the past few days. I’ve been on edge and tired out of my skull. I’m going in late tomorrow cause I still don’t feel all that well.

Some people just refuse to stay out of mine and Ryan’s life. I mean, when numbers are changed, people are blocked/deleted you’d think they’d take the hint. But guess what? Nope.

Oh well. It’s not like she can do shit. Different subject now;

I’m really hating school. It’s my last year, but it’s proving to be the worst. We have a new principal and he’s awful. I’m pretty sure his role model is Hitler himself. We aren’t allowed to;

- Have bottled water.
- Have food of ANY sort out of the cafeteria.
- Stand and eat.
- Sit in the hallway and eat.
- Pack a lunch.
- Stand in the cafeteria/commons area in the morning.
- Carry an inhaler/any sort of meds

Bullshit, huh? I’m really not liking it. Our last principal was really lenient, and we could do all of the above.

Well Ryan and I’s one year is next week, I’m really exited about that of course.

Nothing much else has been up.